Day 06: A song that reminds you of somewhere
This song reminds me of Japan - I went in 1999 for a high school trip for 2 weeks. There was 7 girls, and then teachers/parents. We used to wander round the streets singing this song out loud. Good times :)
Ok so I had the weekend away. And I definitely did notice the lack of Jeremy. But maybe its because I was the one who was away and doing stuff, but I dont feel like I really missed him. And not as much as he missed me. Is this a bad thing?? I almost feel slightly smothered by just how much he missed me.... I think its just an adjustment thing, and my stupid head telling me that its scary just because its new, and because Im not used to it. I dunno... I think I may just be silly, and probably scared of being happy
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Remember when he went to ... christchurch? and you missed him like crazy and didn't think he missed you as much as you missed him?
You were busy and distracted, and away from the familiar things that remind you of him. Whereas he slept in a bed that smelt like you, unable to avoid all the evidence that you should be there and you weren't. Just wait till he goes away again and you miss him like nuts. This is normal. And it is also normal to make a bigger deal about it than it needs to be in your brain and blow it out of proportion. You might be being a little scared of being happy, but you are also letting Nora in again with "this great guy loves me so I can't possibly love him back and our relationship can't possibly be fine". Its just self doubt, my love.
He probably is smothering you, he missed you like crazy and you were distracted, so take a deep breath, and let him smother you a little. Because he loves you, and needs to remind you, and needs you to reaffirm that you love him too. And remember this line "ahahahaha, ok, time out for a second, I need to breathe you know :p"
I have 3 words for you: You Are Amazing!! :)
Dont know where I would be without you.
That totally is it and Im being an egg :)
Yeah I got to sleep with Diesel, and then with Amy, so there wasnt much room to miss him... :)
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