Day 10: A song that makes you fall asleep
I dont know that it makes me fall asleep, but I love listening to Jeff Buckley when Im going to sleep so I figure that counts :)
My head is working against me today. Jeremy was grumpy last night after going to the movies (to Predators of all things - I do not recommend it) because he was hungry, and once he gets too hungry, and his blood pressure drops, he just gets purely focused on food and cant see much else. I was tired and sore and grumpy and not that hungry so I didnt care, but didnt enjoy getting dragged around through town to get where he wanted to go. So cue spastic moody Candi.
This morning, we went out to get food for breakfast and after his first mouthful he said 'ok now im happy' - and my stupid head took offence, and decided that meant I didnt make him happy and that food will always come first. But then food, water and shelter are the basic needs of life right? So it makes sense. And i am just being silly and yet I cant seem to stop it. Grrr.
Oh well hopefully once I get settled at work and start going to the gym and stuff then that will even me out a bit more, cos I am sick of being the spastic girlfriend who is changing her moods all the time, so much so that I am almost giving myself whiplash, let alone anyone else...
4 comments:
Ok, that is a pain - yes food is a basic necessity, but maybe he could plan ahead so that he doesn't get that hungry?
yeah he generally is actually pretty good at eating before he gets to that point.
On the one hand, yeah, I don't think you should get worked up about it. Generally, if he says something, and one of the possible interpretations is something hurtful, he means the other one (and the hurtful one probably didn't occur to him). On the other hand... dude, buy the boy some tact! He just doesn't engage his brain before he speaks, does he? Anyone could have seen that hurting your feelings! Its the kind of thing you are supposed to be careful about saying until the relationship is a year or so old and you've both gotten a bit more secure!
I have a wee rage about this because I question the idea that another person can possibly make you happy. Happiness is a perspective thing, in my opinion and your perspective comes from you, not from other people. If other people could make us happy, depression wouldn't exist except for lonely people... But I am not starting in on that, because you don't need me to blog on your blog. :)
Yeah see I dont want to depend on anyone else to make me happy, cos I can see the flaws in that.
And yet, it makes me sad if I think I cant make someone else happy.
Seriously, my head is a mushy mushness mess of messiness
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