Thursday, March 11, 2010

Hypocrite much?

So I take it back. All the times I have been a bitter old hag to those around me in new relationships, I apologise. I used to get so frustrated with friends who spent ALL their time with new partners and hardly ever made time for their friends. And while I still think it is dumb to do that, I now see exactly how it happens as I have become guilty of the same thing.

I just love spending my time with him. And when Im not spending time with him, Im somewhat bored and wishing he was around. Do I just enjoy this while it lasts? Its got to wear off eventually right??

I just have never felt this way before, where I have actually wanted to spend so much time with someone. I always think of myself as a pretty independent person. And even when there have been guys involved previously, Ive been more than happy to retain my independence and spend only a small amount of time with said guy. And now - Ive seen him everyday for the last week and I couldnt be happier about it.

Part of me wonders if it is partly cos I dont have that many friends down here, so its not as if I have other options or whatever.... But even when I went home last weekend and hung with Amy and went to a friends wedding, I couldnt wait to come back and see him, even though I spend Saturday morning with him anyway and it was only about 36 hours apart....

Crazy. Who am I?

3 comments:

Starcryer said...

Sorry, I have to do this... I don't want to, but I have to...

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Ok, it is ok, it does wear off. It is the initial stage of the lust chemical, and it can last for anywhere up to a year. You are just going to have to go with it hun, cause you cant do jack about it. Make sure you make the time to talk to your friends without him, even if it makes you uncomfortable and you spend your whole time thinking about him, it is still a worthwhile thing to do. :)

Also

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

You aren't a bad person cause you didn't get it before you tried it. And you aren't a bad person for feeling this way now even though you hated on it in the past. You were designed for this, primed for this before you were born and you didn't even know it.

You are the opium baby who grows up hating any thought of drugs and then finally tries their first hit and realises what their body has been screaming for their whole life. Except your drug is much better for you - it makes your skin glow and your hair and eyes all shiny. So that is a win.

aurora said...

Yes I shouldve known you would laugh heartily at me.

Oh well if nothing else, it is good to know I am not an 'inpenetrable fortress' after all huh? Lol

Damn it all to hell

Yes I will agree that I do very much like this drug :)

Starcryer said...

You WERE an impenetrable fortress. But you worked really hard at not being one. Forced yourself to open the doors if only a little. And that is all it takes really... for the right kind of person to realise that there is a gate there they want to see the other side of, and then that they like what they have found.

Remember - impenetrable fortress is one extreme... it could have been worse, you could have gone the other way and become a tourist attraction... :p