Day 06: A song that reminds you of somewhere
This song reminds me of Japan - I went in 1999 for a high school trip for 2 weeks. There was 7 girls, and then teachers/parents. We used to wander round the streets singing this song out loud. Good times :)
Ok so I had the weekend away. And I definitely did notice the lack of Jeremy. But maybe its because I was the one who was away and doing stuff, but I dont feel like I really missed him. And not as much as he missed me. Is this a bad thing?? I almost feel slightly smothered by just how much he missed me.... I think its just an adjustment thing, and my stupid head telling me that its scary just because its new, and because Im not used to it. I dunno... I think I may just be silly, and probably scared of being happy
Monday, July 12, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Day 5
Day 05: A song that reminds you of someone
Funny - it doesnt make me think of the current one at all. But I do associate it with old Jeremy due to jokes made about it, and being very into the song at the time I met him. I guess it will always make me think of him - although luckily, less painfully than it used to.
Had a weekend away - it was nice. Though it was also nice coming home to someone. And it was nice to be missed so much hehe :)
Funny - it doesnt make me think of the current one at all. But I do associate it with old Jeremy due to jokes made about it, and being very into the song at the time I met him. I guess it will always make me think of him - although luckily, less painfully than it used to.
Had a weekend away - it was nice. Though it was also nice coming home to someone. And it was nice to be missed so much hehe :)
Friday, July 9, 2010
Day 4
Day 4: A song that makes you sad
Makes me cry most times I hear it - even prettier live and acoustic. Kelly Clarkson is amazing and this song always makes me think about my mum - its my song to her pretty much, if she deserved it....
This weekend I am going up to Feilding to hang with Amy and have some girl time, after she broke up with her partner a few weeks ago. She seems to be doing really well but it will be good to have time to ourselves. It will be the first weekend Ive spent apart from Jeremy in some time too - part of me will miss him, and part of me is happy for the break. I hope thats normal :)
Thats about all for today
Makes me cry most times I hear it - even prettier live and acoustic. Kelly Clarkson is amazing and this song always makes me think about my mum - its my song to her pretty much, if she deserved it....
This weekend I am going up to Feilding to hang with Amy and have some girl time, after she broke up with her partner a few weeks ago. She seems to be doing really well but it will be good to have time to ourselves. It will be the first weekend Ive spent apart from Jeremy in some time too - part of me will miss him, and part of me is happy for the break. I hope thats normal :)
Thats about all for today
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Day 3
Day 3: A song that makes you happy
So many many possibilities. I have purely gone with the first one that popped into my head:
Makes me think of Friday nights in Murphys in Auckland dancing with Em :)
So had my PT session yesterday. My body fat is like 41% - eeeek. Admittedly, I thought it would be over 50% so thats a relief. But it does mean I am carrying approx 41kgs of fat... Sick. My fitness level is in between low / fair - so definitely room for improvement. Exciting possibilities :)
Ummm not much else to say today really
So many many possibilities. I have purely gone with the first one that popped into my head:
Makes me think of Friday nights in Murphys in Auckland dancing with Em :)
So had my PT session yesterday. My body fat is like 41% - eeeek. Admittedly, I thought it would be over 50% so thats a relief. But it does mean I am carrying approx 41kgs of fat... Sick. My fitness level is in between low / fair - so definitely room for improvement. Exciting possibilities :)
Ummm not much else to say today really
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Day 2
Day 2: Your least favourite song
Any song by Ke$ha - they just played one on the radio and it reminded me how much I dislike her. In fact, hate her music. So much so I cant even bring myself to put it any of them on my page....
Having training at my new job - very tired Candi. Yesterday and today I have come into normal work about 6am, left for the clinic at 7.30, worked there 8-9.30, head back to work, and yesterday I then worked 10-5.30. Today I am finishing at the much nicer time of 3.30, but thats just to go to the gym for an hour PT session that I get upon joining to sort out a programme and body composition and stuff.
I know my body fat percentage is going to be high. Possibly scarily so. But its still something Im dreading. But it will be good to put a number on it and realise just how much I NEED this, for my own life basically and to avoid all sorts of health concerns... I predict tears even. Fun
Any song by Ke$ha - they just played one on the radio and it reminded me how much I dislike her. In fact, hate her music. So much so I cant even bring myself to put it any of them on my page....
Having training at my new job - very tired Candi. Yesterday and today I have come into normal work about 6am, left for the clinic at 7.30, worked there 8-9.30, head back to work, and yesterday I then worked 10-5.30. Today I am finishing at the much nicer time of 3.30, but thats just to go to the gym for an hour PT session that I get upon joining to sort out a programme and body composition and stuff.
I know my body fat percentage is going to be high. Possibly scarily so. But its still something Im dreading. But it will be good to put a number on it and realise just how much I NEED this, for my own life basically and to avoid all sorts of health concerns... I predict tears even. Fun
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Day 1
Day One: Your Favourite Song
So hard. I change my mind every so often. This is simply the first one that popped into my head that I can listen to over and over and never get sick of:
In other news.....
I dont know whats going on but Im particularly down and angsty the last few days. My partner is too tired to have sex, so I cry and pack a sad and feel rejected. That sort of thing. Its first thing in the morning and we do have sex but he doesnt quite "finish", and I decide thats cos I am not good enough, and cry and pack a sad and feel rejected.
The good thing is that I sort it out in my head, and he talks me through it, and is very accepting and understanding. But that doesnt mean its ok. Its not fun for either of us, and its pissing me off. Which in turn just makes it worse cos then I am angry at myself for crying and packing a sad and the cycle keeps going.
So I think it might be time to seriously track down a counsellor and start working through this crap. For my own sake, as well as for the sake of my relationship...
On the plus side, I have a new job, doing what Im actually qualified to do (well actually the job is largely reception with vet nursing thrown in, so thats all good - a nice way to ease into it). And Ive joined a gym. And I have this nutritionist thing starting at the beginning of next month. So hopefully they will all help contribute towards a happier and healthier Candi
So hard. I change my mind every so often. This is simply the first one that popped into my head that I can listen to over and over and never get sick of:
In other news.....
I dont know whats going on but Im particularly down and angsty the last few days. My partner is too tired to have sex, so I cry and pack a sad and feel rejected. That sort of thing. Its first thing in the morning and we do have sex but he doesnt quite "finish", and I decide thats cos I am not good enough, and cry and pack a sad and feel rejected.
The good thing is that I sort it out in my head, and he talks me through it, and is very accepting and understanding. But that doesnt mean its ok. Its not fun for either of us, and its pissing me off. Which in turn just makes it worse cos then I am angry at myself for crying and packing a sad and the cycle keeps going.
So I think it might be time to seriously track down a counsellor and start working through this crap. For my own sake, as well as for the sake of my relationship...
On the plus side, I have a new job, doing what Im actually qualified to do (well actually the job is largely reception with vet nursing thrown in, so thats all good - a nice way to ease into it). And Ive joined a gym. And I have this nutritionist thing starting at the beginning of next month. So hopefully they will all help contribute towards a happier and healthier Candi
A bit of blog spam - which should also encourage me to at least write a little every day.
A music meme, which you have to add to ever day with the following:
Day 01: Your favourite song
Day 02: Your least favourite song
Day 03: A song that makes you happy
Day 04: A song that makes you sad
Day 05: A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06: A song that reminds you of somewhere
Day 07: A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08: A song that you know all the words to
Day 09: A song that you can dance to
Day 10: A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11: A song from your favourite band
Day 12: A song from a band you hate
Day 13: A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14: A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15: A song that describes you
Day 16: A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17: A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18: A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19: A song from your favourite album
Day 20: A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21: A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22: A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23: A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24: A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25: A song that makes you laugh
Day 26: A song that you know how to play
Day 27: A song that you wish you could play
Day 28: A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29: A song from your childhood
Day 30: Your favourite song at this time last year
First day to follow :)
A music meme, which you have to add to ever day with the following:
Day 01: Your favourite song
Day 02: Your least favourite song
Day 03: A song that makes you happy
Day 04: A song that makes you sad
Day 05: A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06: A song that reminds you of somewhere
Day 07: A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08: A song that you know all the words to
Day 09: A song that you can dance to
Day 10: A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11: A song from your favourite band
Day 12: A song from a band you hate
Day 13: A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14: A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15: A song that describes you
Day 16: A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17: A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18: A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19: A song from your favourite album
Day 20: A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21: A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22: A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23: A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24: A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25: A song that makes you laugh
Day 26: A song that you know how to play
Day 27: A song that you wish you could play
Day 28: A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29: A song from your childhood
Day 30: Your favourite song at this time last year
First day to follow :)
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